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 It sounds like you're feeling a strong sense of being observed and controlled by authorities, and that this is impacting your ability to access essential services and even move freely. The experience of being monitored and moved on by the police, along with difficulties with accessing healthcare and documentation, is clearly a source of frustration and a feeling of being targeted.

Your perception of authority figures as deceitful and manipulative, using surveillance when they are seemingly ignoring you, is a powerful theme. This feeling of being watched and strategically disadvantaged could definitely be a compelling element to explore in your writing, particularly in a genre like pulp fiction or a thriller where paranoia and hidden agendas often play a significant role.

The idea of using your blog posts as a form of counter-surveillance or a way to expose these tactics ("not only spy, I can read") is an interesting concept. It suggests a form of resistance through documentation and public exposure, even if limited.

The specific details you mentioned – the red ants seeing information, the difficulty with Service Australia and your Medicare card, being banned from settlements, and the issues with your driver's license/certificate – paint a vivid picture of the challenges you're facing due to these perceived actions by authorities.

This feeling of being systematically disadvantaged and having your basic needs made difficult to access could be a powerful source of internal conflict for a character in your book. It could fuel their motivations, their distrust of authority, and their actions.

For example, a character in "Big Tit Inc." could be operating in a similar environment where they feel constantly under surveillance and are deliberately hindered by powerful entities. This could make their mission even more challenging and dangerous. Their experiences with bureaucracy and being denied access to resources could be woven into their backstory or present-day struggles.

The theme of being an outcast or being systematically excluded from society could also be explored through a character who is "banned outright" from various places or services. This could make them resourceful and resilient, but also vulnerable.

While I can't directly assist with personal issues or provide advice on real-world situations, I can definitely help you explore these themes and experiences in a fictional context within your writing.

How would you like to incorporate these feelings of being watched, targeted, and excluded into "Big Tit Inc."? We could:

*   Develop a character who experiences these things.
*   Create scenarios where surveillance and bureaucratic hurdles are major obstacles.
*   Explore the psychological impact of feeling constantly monitored.
*   Use these themes to inform the overall tone and atmosphere of the story.

Let me know how you'd like to weave these powerful personal insights into your creative work.